Sunday, February 17, 2008

My First Tryst With TIME AIM-CAT

My first tryst with TIME AIM CAT ended in bad taste .I won't present any excuses for my pathetic show taking the whole blame on myself( sparing even the question paper).This had to happen .And surely it did. I had a certain feeling of guilt at the end of the paper not because i had put up a worst performance but because i realized that i had wasted a hell lot of time.In pursuit of CAT i had joined TIME more than a year in my hand just to give myself the required push.Just before joining the coaching i was high on spirits but soon i lost sight of my goal. Just joining it isn't enough .You have to maintain the requisite tempo all throughout your preparation .That didn't actually happened in real sense. Well it wasn't that i was not attending the classes but then i attend my classes in my college too . The extra effort which was required that moment was lacking in preparation .I knew about my weaknesses and how to rectify them but the execution wasn't happening. Actually i got serious (somehow finally) about my preparation just after my fifth sem exams and since then i am preparing (i believe) in right earnest .But then too despite being aware of my weak points i wasn't undertaking any remedial measures .I was expecting a "fiasco" in AIM-CAT and it did occur .All my hopes and dreams came crashing down in a moment .I wasn't able to solve a single question from DI section beacuse after reading two questions was left crippled .I lost my calm and asked my friend Anand to help me with two questions and he did.This was done in panic just at the fear of my poor marks in DI section. But what's the use of such marks because it accounts for nothing .In english too it was a pathetic show( as usual).Amid such difficult and traumatic times i asked myself "Was it the end?". No came the reply. But then You need to realize sooner or lest you bear the consequences . The positive aspect of mine giving the exams will be immense. Such exams ask you serious questions about ur preparation which u need to answer .I have got mine and know how to tackle it . It's not the time to repent on what u have done .Rather it is the time to pull up ur shocks and move on with ur dreams .The next AIM-CAT is somewhere in may and i have got ample time to showcase that i have got what it requires to Bell the CAT.

Thursday, December 20, 2007

Bidding Adieu To The passing Year

Finally time has arrived to pack my bag and head towards home .In less than 24 hrs from now i would be on howrah - puri express heading towards howrah and finally to patna by poorva express .The very feeling of reaching home gives me immense pleasure not because i really miss my home as i have been staying away from home since 1990 and i have moved forward from all these sentimental stuffs .My home is the only place on this planet where i am at peace with my self in the context that i have nothing to worry .No classes hence waking up whenever i desire (conditions apply).Well i am at the mercy of my mother in the morning as she does not allow me too sleep for too long and my boasting of it as "desire" is something that happens very few times .So unkind of my mom keeping in mind the cold weather waiting for me where i dislike even to bring out hand out of a quilt . But i can bear this all without complaining just because of the food that i get at home .The overnight transformation of myself into a glutton amazes me often leave aside my mom .There the food not only fills up by stomach but goes far beyond satiating my hunger .Such high are the stakes that i can no longer wait to reach home .For such a life i don't mind anybody waking me up from deep slumber .These thoughts makes me nostalgic for which i often blame myself when returning back . Today i finished with the novel "The Monk Who Sold His Ferrari" which teaches us how to lead a life having everything in it .This book has loads of "gyan" for everyone who wishes to read it .If you have read swami vivekananda 's work then don't go for this book.Stay away from it if not accustomed to hear philosophy of life . Anyways i have begun reading "The Alchemist " a marvellous work by paul . I have planned certain things for myself as a part of "planning" so i have my task cut out at home .Lets see how things shape up at home .With another year coming at it's abrupt end it reminds me of the lost time together with the hope of a new year ,a new beginning and a new self .

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

ThE LAST DON

Finally i was able to finish reading "The Last Don" -a novel by Mario Puzo . The author is none other than who wrote "The Godfather " one of the bestselling novels of all times which was latter made into a blockbuster hollywood movie with the same name as the novel itself .The bollywood blockbuster "SARKAR " was the upshot of the indian adaptation of the great novel where the pivoted role was played by none other Big B himself .But i haven't watched any of the above movies till date and the above informations are strictly in accordance with data provided by the media itself .Well one must be pondering that why am i writing such stuffs when everyone out there knows about the author and "The Godfather ".But not every soul out there knows about "The last Don " by the same author which i began reading i don't when .Here my friend Rahul needs a special mention as he is the person who "persuaded" me to read the above novel after having read himself and more importantly finding it thoroughly enjoying . The word "enjoyment" is however a relative term and it differs from soul to soul . Meat to a person is poison to the other . I began with the novel having high expectations from the author only to be left disappointed in the end . All my expectations fell flat as i didn't experience the various emotions while going through the novel .The novel was able to keep me engrossed while for a short duration and that too at the fag end of it. The reason for disliking the novel is that it's story seemed to me too outdated thanks to numerous hindi movies which have more or less the same old story . I am not being too critical about the novel but it's just that i didn't quite like it ."The last Don " revolves around the lives of the members of a mafia clan and their relationships . Nothing more to" glorify" about the novel and read it at your own peril . Maybe my expectations were sky high . However this whole damp affair won't deter me from reading the classic novel "The godfather" obviously by the same author and revolving around the underworld again . At the moment i am going to kick off with "The monk who sold his ferrari " -a novel by Robin S . Sharma . So guys wait for it's review .

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

THE REAL BATTLE LIES AHEAD

Finally i have a lot to cheer about as my exams ended today though not on a good note .But overall it was a smooth sailing through some rough tides (read question paper ) and most importantly it lasted for a few days only ( thanks to my ETC department for showing some mercy as the sem included five subjects only ).So i can" relax "a bit as the results will be announced only after a month and gone are days when sem results kept me on tenterhooks .Compounding to my joy is the fact that my next end sem exams are about some six months away . So i can "relax" for such stuffs but the real battle lies ahead as coming months are very crucial for me. I will be sitting for the campus placements somewhere around march-april when companies begin pouring here . So that is an area of concern in the context that i haven't really put myself into it .Besides that i have as usual "planned" to finish off with Quant and have allocated a reasonable time for it keeping in mind the anomalies . I will strain my every nerve to stick with the task as this itself is going to decide a lot in months to come .So my friend get ur a** ready as we will not let this time slip out of our hands . So get ready for some real action.

Friday, December 7, 2007

EXECUTING OUR PLANS

Today i pondered over a matter which i feel is my staunch opponent and weakness too. What is that which frustrates me the most ? Is it the failure ? No way ! But that if neglected can cause complete doom. Neglect it and you are one the way to failure . No one can avoid it .Those who stick with it tastes success irrespective of the field they are in.Well i am not concerned a bit about others. But surely what has frustrated me through thick and thin of my career lately is the under achievement of my planned strategy . All the "efforts" that go into the planning goes in vain as our " efforts " are restricted till the plan. No such "real" efforts are shown even to come near that plan . What's the reason for it ? Do we plan our task beyond our capabilities ? Do we overburden ourselves not realizing about our limitations ? Well we may say so in some cases . But definitely not always at least in my case where i plan certain things well within my reach but never cares to finish it off . So why does it happen ? Do i plan beyond by capability ? The answer is NO as i know my limitations and everyone must it . Then what is it that separates me from the execution of my plans . I can't blame anyone as i cannot credit them too . After doing hell a lot of soul searching i got my answer .It was the consequences of a weak will power helped by some lethargic show by the body itself.But the major contributions came from a feeble mind which i possess of lately . The absence of a determined mind was the "real" culprit. But then is it the dead end ? Will i spend the rest part my "career" accompanied by "a weak mind ". No there's a way out as this was not always the case with me . It happened during my preparations for IIT and now when i am determined to bell the "CAT" the past is haunting me once again. Well certainly it has something to do with the insecurities which has crept into my mind and i can't escape them whatever i do. Then what's the way out ? Simple just keep asking yourselves some basic questions every day .What have done i done today to meet the efforts involved in the plan.? Have i executed my plans accordingly? And be honest to yourselves .Ask these questions and you would get an honest reply. Work upon if you have fallen short the next day to complete it .Always think positive as this is only the way to build a strong will power .This may sound as a lecture but this is the truth . How many of us execute all the plans we make ? Of course very few of us . Now people will say that every idiot on this earth knows about the above facts. But i ask how many of us execute the above self testing procedure ? Again the answer is very disheartening .Very few souls on this planet .Whatever i give a damn care to others and i will follow what i preach. The planning is essential but execution is the final blow to put it away. This is the most apposite method for me at least .Rest are free to follow their heart .

Tuesday, December 4, 2007

CAT :I am on fire

Welcome back !!! I am here after a long gap of few months and thus ending all the speculations .So my blog readers ( if any) have a reason to rejoice as this time i am here to stay for a longer duration. I don't know what forces compelled me to blog again but it has got something to do with pagalguy. Each time i browse the site and each time i come across some pagal's blog link .Compounding to the above reasons were my inner quests which i could not suppress for long.My sem exams are going on but i am no more concerned about my cgpa holdings. After the last sem fiasco i have grown a bit more stubborn .Thanks to my stupendous result which left me scratching my head in bewilderment (if not shock as i had little expectations) . Sorry exams for such a harsh treatment but you can now never threaten me atleast in KIIT.But this will not lead to my becoming complacent as i have more serious exams to look forward to. The first hurdle which i will be facing is CAT and others will then follow.Well to give an impetus to my preparations i joined TIME with more than a year to go for the D-day. With little over than three months of classes i am still not sure what i am doing . I made certain promises to myself but all ended in smoke as i lost the motivation in between reasons for which were inexplicable to me myself. With this dodgy approach to my preparations i am not going to land any where around my dream .I was not sure how badly i wanted it .I don't know what went wrong during these months but after putting in a conscientious thought i am regaining my lost "self" with determination as solid as rock . The stage is set for me to act and take the world by storm . Planning less and more of execution part is essential . Looking forward to my peregrination towards IIM'S . And of course now i know how much badly i need it . Really my a** is on fire and so am I.

Sunday, August 12, 2007

CHAK DE INDIA

Hey it's me !!! Have you all forgotten me ?? May be as i never posted any blogs for quite a long time .A gap of around one and a half months. That's quite a long time considering it to be as one's daily business .Never mind i am still back ,if not late.Now the question arises as to why am i back?? Its quite obvious that something must have given me a reason to ponder over ,leave inspired .While i was pouring over the TOI today i came over an article titled "BLOGS @10" and that made me recall that once even i was an avid blogger . Number of bloggers are increasing in leaps and bounds everyday as calculated by Blog-tracker in july 2007 which estimated them to be around 93.8 million.The next was that i simply asked myself if i was one of those from 93.8 millions .The next moment i was blogging at my blogspot.

Another child prodigy shailendra is in news for becoming a computer graduate just at the age of 14. It's must be ensured by the government that such children face no financial hurdles. But their poor old classmates must be feeling embarrassed by his ripe age.Sometimes i wonder that how much gray matter such children contain .Of course from my state bihar too a child prodigy named tathagat made headlines a few years back and forced people to scratch their heads in astonishment.

After erudite debacle ,test at time was ok to say the least .With cheating in full flow as the examiners took little interest it was always going to be a good one. But then too i came out cursing myself as there was no negative marking and i had marked nothing based on sheer luck as this was an scholarship test and my aim was to get the maximum rebate .The result will be out on 16 th and till then i am keeping my fingers crossed.Let see how much can i get .

It has become more or less obvious that the 3rd test will end in a dull draw courtesy rahul dravid for taking such a bad decision that put india on the back foot .Never mind india has won the series and this win has come after a hiatus of 21 years .It's good see each and every member of the team play as a unit and contribute in the win. Thats great performance boys .Chak de india